Heroically Lost, Heroically Found

by Abi Grace (aka Allie LaRoe)

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October Country The more I listen to this album, the better it gets. On first listen, Abi Grace's voice is mesmerizing, of course. But on each replay, deeper layers of talent draw your attention. The guitar arrangements are complex, and the harmonies, which I assume are Abi multi-track harmonizing with herself, are tight and beautiful, reminiscent of some of Simon & Garfunkel's best harmonies. Then on subsequent replays, you become aware of just how great these songs are lyrically. I'm out of room! Buy this LP! Favorite track: The Prodigal.
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released November 15, 2009

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Abi Grace (aka Allie LaRoe) Seattle, Washington

Abi Grace also known as Allie LaRoe. Front woman and songwriter for The Feral Folk, passion advocate, magic enthusiast. Also likes wine.

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Track Name: The Cycle
Looking up at a bright blue sky
feeling alright in fact I'm feeling divine
looking down on this shining city
glass building's reflecting the sunshine to me
I breath in the scent of spring rain
let it wash away yesterday's pain
cause I'm dancing to the rhythm of my heart beat
suddenly I understand that I am complete

And I want to start the cycle with you
want to show you something new
leave my past behind
and if you're willing to open your eyes
to a new kind of sight open your mind to the divine

Laughter still comes after good byes
The rain that nurtures us are tears from the sky
the birth you're longing for comes from leaving yourself behind
sometimes you can't find yourself until you've lost your mind
how can you love if you never sacrifice?
how can you know happiness if everything's always nice?
how can you dance if you won't let your shame lie?
You must leave the ground if you ever wish to fly

And I want to start the cycle with you
want to show you something true
want to show you me
and if you can look and not turn away
baby don't be afraid, infinity's a scary thing

And sometimes life hits low
and there's no referee to call the blow
but instead of crying and not doing a thing
brace yourself for the pain
and what tomorrow will bring
dance with your skeletons and they'll never go down
love life with everything and you'll never have to frown
breath in the air and know the gift that it brings
the new life that springs from the death of old dreams

and I want to start to the cycle with you
want to be renewed in the breadth of your touch
if you're willing to go down a new road
maybe you've traveled it before
but it's still into the unknown

and I want to start the cycle with you
want to show you something true
want to show you me
if you can look and not turn away
now baby don't be afraid
infinity's a scary thing
Track Name: Loft in Seattle
I want to rent a loft in Seattle and spend
the rest of my life there with you
we'll be dirt poor but
none of that will matter because
we'll have our art to get us through

We'll look down on Puget Sound
and I'll bring you you're coffee in bed
and then we'll talk about
half written songs
and the latest things that we've read

On Sunday Evenings I'll kidnap you from your responsibilities
and take you out to the mountains
we'll get in touch again
talking like old friends
and staring up at the heavens
together we'll lie our faces turned to the sky
and our hearts beating in unison
and then we'll talk about
then you'll pull close to me
and we'll make love gently
away from societies illusions

We'll get old and maybe even have kids
that grow up to be happy and whole
and in our retirement
we'll recall the time we spent
in our loft in Seattle
in our loft in Seattle
Track Name: The Prodigal
I've worn out my shoes trying to walk away
my tears have all dried my hearts faded and frayed
don't think I can make it another day
so I spend tonight dreaming of home

I've been looking to the shadows for company
listening to my own voice to comfort me
the road has grown cold and lonely
so I'll spend tonight dreaming of home

And I know that I'm in your heart there
there's food a bed and a warm fire
there's people who know me
who always will hold me
and never let me fall

I've been listening to the siren's calling in the bay
resisted their song for the last five days
till even they gave up and swam away
and I'll spend tonight dreaming of home

and I chased a spector into the cold night
wandered lonely meadows under the pale blue light
wasted my youth on earthly delights
and I'll spend tonight dreaming of home

and I know that I'm in your heart there
there's food a bed and a warm fire
there's people who know me
who always will hold me
and never let me fall

But the winds become my lover
and the road will let me have no other
so it seams I'm destined to wander
and spend my nights dreaming of home
Track Name: The Holes in Myself
I tried to fill the holes in myself
with pieces of somebody else and
as I fit the puzzle together I found that it didn't help
and I faced my imperfections
in the circus mirror of reality
and discovered my shame
for the weakness inherent in me
I became my shadow and my ego turned and sneered
I wanted to find a cure for the disappearance that I feared
so I packaged you and marketed you
as a perfect man
I wanted some one to complete
this broken heart that I had

I chased our passions course
with the idleness of my mind
had it all planed out
composed each one of your lines
a play inside my mind to comfort me in my fear
in hopes that dreams might salve the wounds I couldn't heal
but kingdoms built on dreams
are sure to topple and to fall
and I couldn't maintain the false security of it all
and as the castle began to crumble
and the curtains to decay
I felt my fears fall around me
and hoped to fade away

Sleeping in my apathy
he found me in his way
an unlikely prince charming
who'd come to save the day
and pull me from the dragons
my cynicism had enslaved
show me that magic still exists in day to day
there was no completion he just handed back my heart
and listened as I told him the story of how it fell apart
Track Name: Orpheus Bows
I have a habit of pulling away
from what I love before my heart breaks
a cushion of space to keep my self safe

But I don't think I can run fast enough this time
don't have what it takes to outdistance the fault lines
and soon it will swallow me whole
all of that forgotten sorrow

I wasted my time pursuing perfection
you were wiser for heading the other direction
but now it's all come to an end

I thought it was magic
I could bring you to life again
followed into your maddness
extended an outstretched hand
but I looked back my darling
I looked back and I'm sorry

But I have a habit
of pulling away from what I love
before my heart breaks
a cushion of space
to keep myself safe

But I don't think I can run fast enough this time
don't have what it takes
to out distance the fault lines
and soon it will swallow me whole
all of that forgotten sorrow
and soon it will swallow me whole
all of that forgotten sorrow
Track Name: The Widow's Lament
I woke up in a dream in which you held me
I woke up in tears
cause it wasn't real and it hasn't been
for the last couple of years
still in these moonless dreams
my heart searches for a secret melody
that I could sing and it would bring you back to me

Oh years may go
the tides turn the autumn leaves fall
but I'll never forget you my love
though the earth cradle you in your pall

Remember when we first met
it was 1932
it was a hard year but I never noticed when I was around you
your eyes seemed to hold the secrets
of all I wanted to know
and they looked into the hidden caverns of my soul

and then our wedding day
nothing seems to go right
but you laughed so merrily when I walked out in white
we said our vows, you kissed me there
carried me down the isle
and our family followed suit murmuring single file

Oh years may go
the tides turn the autumn leaves fall
but I'll never forget you my love
though the earth cradle you in your pall

We were going to have children
but we never seemed to succeed
and I was scared you'd turn to other women
instead of staying sterile with me
one night I lost my temper 'cause you had come home late
and you listened as I poured out the fear I'd come to hate
you took my hand, you kissed my palm, looked at me so seriously
and said you couldn't leave any more then a fish could leave the sea

Oh years may go
the tides turn the autumn leaves fall
but I'll never forget you my love
though the earth cradle you in your pall

You worked in the mill for years
your hands were calloused and strong
but you held me so gently at night when you came home
but time is cruel
the fate's spool seems to spin at a dizzying pace
and arthritic hands now smooth the sheets
that hold a painfully empty place

Oh years may go
the tides turn the autumn leaves fall
but I'll never forget you my love
though the earth cradle you in your pall
Track Name: The Fox and The Hunt
When I was scared and ready to flee
thought the hunt was after me
thought they would kill me for what I am
couldn't stand the thought of breaking down for them
you didn't call the dogs to chase
whipped those tear streaks from off of my face
kept my secrets held my dreams
and never asked the same of me

Through wild days and the calm
through the darkest nights I've known
you have been a sentinel for me
the promise of shore on an empty sea

and I loved you even when I didn't say it to you
and I loved you more then I knew how to
and I loved you more then I thought I could
I loved you more then you said I should

So now you say you've got a big black hole
and it's gnawing at your soul
and you need some time to get away
and some space so you can contemplate
I won't call the dogs to chase
I'll wipe the tear steaks from off of your face
I'll keep your secrets hold your dreams
you know you could always ask it of me

if you return and you have changed
don't ever think I'll turn you away
as long as the heart of the man remains
the scars you collect don't effect a thing

and I loved you even when I didn't say it to you
and I loved you more then I knew how to
I loved you more then I thought I could
I loved you more then you said I should
Track Name: The Straight Route
I didn't take the straight route
but it brought me back to you
and now I'm staring at my ceiling trying to
figure out what to do cause
even distant memories
have become preferable to me
to being held by somebody that isn't you
that isn't you

And I've been self medicating
with booze and cigarettes
and my biggest disappointment
is they haven't killed me get
but if you were near me
I'd quit it all for you
cause you're the only person
I want to wake up next to

every morning would be a treasure
sunkissed I'd hoard forever
and I wouldn't taunt death anymore
cause you're worth waking up for

I've grown since you've left me
my hearts learned to break and expand
and I've gained enough wisdom to stop
going through so many men
they all seem like poor replacements
distractions from the fact
that I gave my love to you and there's
no taking it back

I can't help but cheapen it with words
there's no language precious enough in this world
and all my metaphors seem inadequate and cliche
to express what I'm trying to stay

I didn't take the straight route, but it brought me back to you....
Track Name: Surprise me
Surprise me
show me I can believe
cause I'm on my way to giving up
those kinds of fantasies
I can't keep believing in
this kind of stuff
so I'm constantly braced for disappointment
like so many others I know
and I avoid intimacy cause I hate to be vulnerable

but coming on this morning
when you've dosed off during the movie
and I'm thinking to myself
maybe there is more then me
and I'm curling up next to you
and I'm feeling your heart beating
is this history repeating
or are you something new

Prove me wrong
show me that you can be
more then anyone else has been
dive in deeper ignore my insecurities
climb over the walls and let yourself in
cause I've been hoping secretly
for someone to share the spring with
and I won't show it openly
I'm subtle as the seasons

but you're smiling at me
and I'm lost in those eyes
try to shut myself off
but I'm seeing my demise
and I'm curling up next to you
and I'm feeling your heart beating
is this history repeating
or are you something

and I can't help it if I'm in disbelief
my cynicism runs runs deep
and baby it's hard to believe you mean anything
when it's been empty words before
I need you to show me that you can be something more

so delight me show me there's more then dreams
cause I've been seeking unconsciousness
and delight me with every little thing
show me that there is more then this
show me that there is more then this
Track Name: Hearts Try Their Wings
I don't need rings or roses to validate what we've got
I don't need cards or poems that will turn to ash or rot
you don't need to prove a thing to me to make this real in my mind
just lay here in the silence and make the most of our time
cause while we are together no matter how long it lasts we are more then just each other and the tangles of our past
and as we come together we get closer to the divine
as hearts try their wings one more time

I don't need valliant actions to prove that you are true
I don't need lists or contracts, I've put my faith in you
I don't need to know you're accomplishments
to love the man beneath
you can take a rest baby there's nothing you've got to prove to me
cause while we are together
no matter how long it lasts
we are more then just each other
and the tangles of our past
and as we come together
we get closer to the diving
as hearts try their wings one more time

You don't need to promise forever
if it's something that you can't keep
we don't need to be always together
in order to be complete
I don't want to finish your sentances
I'd rather compose my own
the nights I spend with you mean more
cause of those I've spent alone

and while we are together
no matter how long it lasts
we are more then just each other
and the tangles of our pasts
and as we come together
we get closer to the divine
as heart's try their wings one more time.